Reoccurring resolutions

It is December, and I thought I might talk about one yearly resolution that I've been putting off for many years, which is learning Spanish. Sweats,

 

To talk about failed resolution would be underrated in this post, because this resolution has been in my list for quite a number of years already. In actuality, the only reason it failed was simply because I would come up with a quantity of excuses and quit before I even given it a full month's try.

 

There is something about the language, though. I had always loved Spanish since I was young, but I got the enthusiasm and lust when I started learning basic Mandarin when I was 14 (which was years ago!). But even then, I had never been good in acquiring language skills. Up until now, the only language that I can speak beautifully and smoothly would be English and Malay, which is quite common.

 

Even back when I was in college, the Arabic language was a compulsory subject, and even then, I was able to only grasp the MOST fundamental of the language. Spanish, however, has been a yearly resolution for me. It started back in 2012. But all I acquire is failure.

 

The thing about this failure is that, I am not at all disappointed about it. In fact, I am grateful for this yearly failure. It reminds me just how much I am procrastinating, it reminds me of what I'm lacking, which is effort. And more irony in that, even though I am aware of the problem, I still fail.

 

Maybe one day, I will be able to speak the languages.

Maybe that is why I've made this post.

To add salt to my own injury.

 

Sweats.