Our Sun.

We all have that one sun in our lives, and I don't mean the Sun that shines bright during the day. What I really mean is the sun that shines through our lives, ushering us forward and giving us hope to stay on. Sometimes we lose that sun, and thus the darkness looms in our life. That vast darkness persist and making us hard to live our lives.

The sun will always shine brightly.

I had many suns when I was growing up. But through all those sun, I lost my biggest sun. What does this sun means to me? Well, this sun was someone who accepted me when others didn't, she was someone who always cared for me and looked for me during my absence. The time I spent with that sun wasn't long, just a mere two years, but losing her was the hardest.

Even after 5 years, I still call out her name and talk to her in my subconscious mind. Understanding that she is no longer near me is painful, but realizing and becoming aware of the reality made her shine brighter and lightening up my life with more colors. You see, during her presence, she made sure I became stronger before she left, and despite leaving without saying goodbye, I still am alive and breathing.

It's November 2015. For 5 years, I have met many other suns, but nothing can compare to that sun I once had. I guess that's why I love the sun and the sky, because it reminds me so much of her. The warmth and glow that it gives soften my heart, and the humid air makes it easier for me to keep on moving. There is no need to be fearful when it becomes dark, because the sun will come back tomorrow, and it will keep on shining.

Those who left us never really left us. They are forever in our hearts. Always.