Counting.

As the days of my diploma period coming to an end, the more insecure my emotions are. I guess it's normal to fret separation, to be anxious about the future, to hate the time in which was used idly... So many things.

But to be honest, after 3 years, I am still pondering about how I can contribute myself to the world.  They say that college life is a phase where we can infiltrate our insecurities and weaknesses thus furthering them and changing them into strengths and improving them. I've seen many faces with a million awesome potentials and great strengths. They had taught me to search and dig deeper within me to find my own potentials and empowering them for the goods of others.

The thing is, the only barrier, the only problem is myself. What's keeping me from achieving my finding of my own potential is myself. If there was something to be blamed for my lack of growth, then the answer would be myself. I've been holding back a lot, still constantly blaming myself of the past. But, being in college had opened my eyes of the real world. That my world wasn't as bad as I thought it was.

Guilt of the past is okay at times, you know. It acts as a reminder that whatever it was, it won't be repeated. That's how you learn, that's how you grow. That guilt helps you to grow and change.

Ah. I am so gonna miss my diploma days. The world really ain't that bad, to be honest. Smiles.