The realization.

The month of January is coming to its end. A whole month has passed in the year 2015. How time flies. And only at this very point had I come to realizing that I am actually wasting my time. I may have my resolutions, but procrastination isn't going to help me get there. In fact, all these procrastination will only gonna slow things down for me. Or worse, it may also be the first step of my complete failure. It depends on the depths of my procrastination scheme.

Year 3 - Bandar Hilir

I want to make 2015 meaningful. I want to make 2015 the first step of my dreams. A step closer towards my dreams. In approximately 3 months from now, my diploma days will end and I have to face the unknown as a future. A future that I can not foretell nor to even foresee. And when that happens, I have to prepare myself for what's going to happen, whether it is something that I can expect or something that I can not expect.

At this age, I know I have to start growing up and learn to be mature. In the aspect of maturity, age is not the key here, but rather the key here is mentality. Through these 3 years of college, I had learned from many people the true meaning of maturity. And through these 3 years, I had compared myself greatly with others, noticing my flaws with every comparison. And yes, as compared to them, I have a lot to improve myself on. Somehow, I feel so left behind from them. And I noticed how awesome my friends and classmates are.

Despite having to accept myself as awesome, the irony is, I am not. But, my teacher once told me : You have to convince the greatness of yourself to yourself first before you can convince others of it, and also, before others are really convinced.

And so, I just hope this realization is really a trigger for a complete makeover for myself.

"I convince myself that I am awesome before others are convinced. Why? Because, I am."