5th Dec : The Final Chapter

Today is the last day for practicum, which also means that today is the last day I'll be working as a trainee counselor. It has been a wonderful 6 weeks being in UiTM Melaka, and the experiences and the memories will last me for a lifetime! Indeed it will.

Kak Aini, Pn Anis, Kak Fatin, Pn Mizah, En Bakri, Pn Baiti

I'm going to miss UiTM, especially the people that I've met during these 6 weeks. Like, Pn Baiti, for instance. And there's the other counselors from UiTM KAG, Pn Mizah and En Bakri. Then there's two other intern counselors from KAG, kak Fatin and kak Aini. In fact, if I were to list out everyone's names out, it'll tear me up! (Ahah! Talk about having a soft heart. Aha!) 6 weeks of practicum, 6 weeks of working, 6 weeks of learning, 6 weeks of happiness, 6 weeks of my semester break. 6 weeks feels so insufficient and I am quite sad and a little bit disappointed that I was given only such a small amount of time to savour and really grasp this opportunity to experience first-hand of what and how it is to be a counselor. I had hoped for a longer time for practicum, but 6 weeks will do, then. At least we were given this chance now, right?

These past few weeks had taught me many things. These people, too, had taught me many things about life, and they had made me realized the true meaning of life as a whole. I had never met such outspoken, carefree, caring and supportive people. It has been quite awhile since I've felt close to someone new; It's like as if we were a part of a family. My expectations were met, to be honest, during these 6 weeks. And I had never been happier. To walk out this room today feels so sad and somehow it feels like I'm walking out from a life that I had long desired. A life that I had longed imagined. A life that I thought would never happen for me.

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Before practicum started, our lecturer told us that we were to carry out 10 individual sessions, 5 group sessions and attend or conduct 3 programs in this 6 weeks, and alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah, He had eased us in our journey. And through that journey, too, we had learned so much from our clients. Each and every single one of us has a struggle of our own. Each one of us has our own path to walk, to take, and it is unfair for us to make fun of other people's paths. Their path may differ from us, but who knows one day their path will cross-path with ours. By looking at other people's life, we can learn a great deal. As for me, I had learned to be thankful and grateful of my life, despite the emotional turmoil that I have to suffer each passing day. After hearing countless stories about other people's lives, it made me realized that my life isn't at all that bad. True, some stories of my life had devastated me before, but then again, there are others who's currently suffering something far worse than what I had to encounter -- or currently have to encounter. If they can still live life to the fullest, and still stand up tall, then why can't I be like them too?

Mira, Pn Baiti, Me

In fact, my clients had successfully opened my eyes to see life in a different angle, in a different perspective. They had made me fully aware about life and its simplicity. The only thing's complicated about life is our views and distorted perspective of it. Only now, I finally understand what it is to live life to the fullest. To be carefree, and happy always. No matter how rough the storm is, the sun always comes out again. These people, for the past 6 weeks, had finally made me a better person. Had successfully made me smile endlessly till the end. They had taught me to live life without regrets, and to continue my current path and not stray from it. These people had showed me a great deal of love, kindness and support, and believe me, I love them, lillahi!

Ah. I'm going to miss being in UiTM. Being with these people. Being with my clients, being with the
students and staff there. Gonna miss working as a counselor. But all in all, I'm going to miss the environment, and how it made my heart feel. I'm going to make these 6 weeks a memory of a lifetime! For 6 weeks, the only emotions I had felt were happiness and contentment, and I had never been happier! Thank you to everyone for helping me improve for the better for the last 6 weeks. Thank you for everything, for the lessons, for the motivation, for the support, and especially for this 6 weeks of experience. Thank you, and I hope to see each and every single one of you again later on in life. Who knows, our path might cross each other one day! Ah. And yes, I will always miss you guys. Smiles.

Ah! Life has to move on, though, because I have a dream to achieve. Like what Pn Baiti always say : We need to move on and to always believe! And that, I will.. Wink.