Everyone have this habit where they would ask people about their pasts. And if you were to ask me, I really can't answer the question because I don't remember much about my pasts. In fact, those vivid dreams of the pasts before feels like the murmurs of the wind now. Blurry, indistinct, hazy, and any other synonyms to decribe it. But, that doesn't mean I am in denial of my past. No. My decision to forget my past is a way for me to move on in life. And, alhamdulillah, I did move on.
But... To be honest, to push away memories isn't the right way to some people. Because there are times where these pushed away memories come back and haunt them. So, what's the solution to this when this happens? One word : REDHA. Redha means to accept what is given wholeheartedly and openly. Redha means to not mope when a hardship is given to your life. Redha means to still be thankful and grateful to what is given in your life. Redha is an act that many people fail to do in life, and thus, creating further problems to them.
Speaking back about the pasts... To me, being in denial of the past means that person isn't accepting his/her past and feels trapped in it. Why feel trapped in it? I remember a quote that I love from KungFu Panda 2 (And yes, who said cartoons can't help you to motivate yourself?) :
"Your story may not have such a happy beginning, but that doesn't make you who you are. It is the rest of your story, who you choose to be."
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| My fav cartoon so far. =) |
And yes, I hold on to this quote ever since the first time I watched KungFu Panda. In fact, this specific cartoon had helped me gather the strength and motivation from its motivational words and phrases. Inner peace comes when you accept your past and not avoid it. The past had already happened, and no matter what you do, you can't change it. Just accept it.
My past wasn't exactly traumatic or sad, but my past was bittersweet. Though nothing is clear, and my memories of the past is indistinct, but that's okay. Why? Because I still remember all the life lessons I had learned through all of it. I accepted my past, I forgave myself and the people who had done wrong before, I changed my perspectives towards my past, and I begin to feel thankful and grateful that Allah SWT had given me that past. If it weren't for that past, I wouldn't have been here now, gracefully and happily enjoying my life, especially now that I am on the path of achieving my dream to be a clinical psychologist. And even if I can't be a clinical psychologist, that's okay. I can still have the chance to be a full-pledged licensed counselor, and through that, I will be STILL be able to give aid to society.
So, what's wrong with life?
Life is nothing wrong. Life is all that is right -- if we look at it the RIGHT way. ;)
"The past is for you to learn from, the present time is for your to work hard in, and the future is for you to seek and dream for. Every moment is precious. Live it well, because once it is gone, you won't be able to get it back."
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